This will be a long post. I Will try to break it at about 400-450words, both for my own sake as well as for the sake of my readers.
Its about being powerless. My mind was in knots for quite a many weeks. Music has gone stale, songs I like, I don’t seem to quite like them anymore. Quotes and books has lost their meanings. I literally flat lined.
Until recently. this epiphany just came to me, no it didn’t ‘hit’ me. the realisation was eventual. to be powerful, be powerless. I wrote recently, ‘the needy is never powerful, the powerful is never in need.’
there’s another saying by Confucius, I think, ‘ He who has enough, is rich.’
This is all about being. not about being right, being wrong. simply is being. Power is also a being. Aikido, or the life at large, is about the being of power. Nothing in life is about power. life is all about being powerless. We can never become powerful with our own being. Come’on. how much power do you have? How much power can i muster? In order of me to amplify that power of mine, I must first relinquish it. If i hold onto my own power, I do unto become me.
Be powerless, and become a void. become a void to absorb power. then there will not be any power the is over powering. as long as we keep to our openness and not use our power. perhaps use our power to accept the power of others. this manner, i can never become the most powerful, neither can the most powerful become me.
So we have to receive, this is the magic. I realise that i have been giving too much. Yes, turn it around and be selfish. not give for once. just receive. Not its is not about taking either. its just receive.
Receive, receive, receive. to take would be something else. to take would imply an pro-action approach, so if you take, what do you want to take? everything? how much of everything can you hold before you collapse on the weight of your own desire?
Receive, on the other hand, is about openness, what is there to receive? Everything? Anything? whatever! It is the non attachment that is so preached in Buddhism. To receive, it means that we have to let go of something, our things. Precious things. otherwise how can we further accept?