More about receiving

This word grips me.

It certainly gives me a sense of peace to know that I just have to sit back, relax and prepare to receive, whatever that comes along, whatever will be, will be.

If this is so, why do i still bother with this blog? just receive. why post and throw out my intellectual? This, is not a giving on my part, this is not the easy to understand part as well. I am still receiving, or at least i try to make myself believe.

Its not easy to release yourself from all powers and receive. because the human paradox is a nasty twist of irony. after my long post on receiving, i receive certain vibes that the argument is not complete, not strong. not perfect. which means my reception is not clear, i am still questioning the answers i received.

I will try not to amend the earlier post, instead i will supplement it with another one, or many more thereafter.

I remembered part of my earlier post, i mentioned something about ‘Music has gone stale, songs I like, I don’t seem to quite like them anymore. Quotes and books has lost their meanings. I literally flat lined.’ I left that line kinda hanging there without further elaboration.

I why did i ‘flat lined’?

Its growth, for example I have listening to Jason Mraz over and over again, it bring about a certain feeling, which is why we all listen to music, its a kinda a groovy feeling we get out of it, or we expect from it. i flat lined because i was not longer receiving them, i was expecting music to do what it has done in the past, i was expecting words to come together and form meaningful meaning for that i can feel ‘motivated’.

Motivation don’t comes from those word. motivation is in me. i wasn’t receiving the motivations because i was so busy expecting and reaching out for something else. when i settled down and got this figured out, music is of a different texture. motivational quotes dig more than ever, the connection is strengthened and rebuilt.


About Who is Randy Lim

This blog is about the journey and experiences in my life as an Aikidoka. With close to 20 years in the arts, I'll make comments and judgements based on 2 principles, E&E. Experimentation and Experiential reflection. please enjoy, and comment freely.
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