Most of the time , we have a self conversation with ourselves. This small little voice in us has been long been debated, dissected by mind professionals such as psychologists, psychiatrists, doctors but the mystery of its identity remains. Some of us has multiple voices, in extreme cases schizophrenia, or split personality But most of us are normal.
As martial arts practitioners, we are not spared that voice as well. It is very important that we know who we are talking to. No so much as to know the mysterious identity, rather the characteristics behind the voice. some voice sounds like your mother, others sounds like a really bad nightmare, others propel you to mastery, peace and victory.
Many times, we act out these voices, after all they are not external to us, but in us, our mind, very close to us. which is why they can be scary to talk to sometimes. When these scary voices escapes our mind into the real world , real damage is done.
As Aikidoka, we need to be conscious about these voices. How these voices talk to us, tell us things. When we are faced with a huge uke, do we tell ourself “Boy! He’s big! More strength needed!” or “Tom, is so large, I can never move him in the past, he has pummeled me in free practice before! He’s gonna pummel me again!”
Well, that is more of a negative aspect. but remember, Tom, also have a voice in him, talking to him pretty much in the same way you are talking to yourself. In this moment of truth, the person who has the most silent head will dictate the outcome of the interaction. Stillness speaks, and speaks the loudest.
Everything that is physical, manifests first in the cerebral, nothing that we do, is not thought out first, the only difference is how well it is thought out. the one with the clarity on mind, will dictate, Those who try, and realise what they thought of does not correspond with reality, panic. I’ve seen this in free practice, where Aikidoka struggle against a really strong uke, when the nage realised that he is not as skilled as he thought he was.
Nothing wrong with that, to allow such subliminal to surface is fine, it cannot be compress, Aikido is one of the many ways to serve as an outlet. Just try to make sure no one gets hurt.