I think one thing about me in training is that i can be seemingly uncooperative. Especially when it comes to locks. I do not respond well to Nikkyo, San-Kyo, yong-kyo, unless applied correctly.
You can call it a kinda of masochistic mentality, it is just how i respond to pain. I don’t. Or rather, i respond to pain by not responding, I can ignore a large amounts of pain. Sure i feel pain, i am able to choose a respond to it, which is to absorb it.
On the other words I don’t die easy. Well, I’m not too sure if it is the work of the ego, I can probably admit that it does. the other part is the will not to yield. I don’t like to be patronised and i shall not patronise. if your lock does not work on me, it will not. I seldom tap just for the sake of tapping. Of course for junior belts, I would tap, when the lock is applied appropriately, even if it does not hurt.
that is a scary thing i realise one of the days in training, if anyone has a ‘push to go’ button, Mine would be pain. the more pain i experience, the more fired up i get. I don;t know if this qualify as a fight or flight response, because i certainly choose to fight when I feel pain.
Of course i wouldn’t dumbly resist pain, until it breaks, as long as the lock is correctly applied, and the pain is immense, sure i would tap, but more often than not, the lock is not always effective on me.
The other factor is of course, training. back in those days, Sunny, my old training buddy, was relentless in the locks, and they work, period. When he locks you, you’d go down, it hurt, and i would do likewise, cos if i don’t he’s not gonna tap. Nowadays, it seems like the newer generation of aikidokas are unable to apply these locks properly for fear that their partner might get hurt. SURE! get them to feel hurt! I’d rather get hurt (or not) in the dojo, where i learn what works and what not, than to go out into the streets to get hurt when i realised that my techniques do not work. Not only the newer folks, dared not hurt, they cannot bear hurt. and has low threshold levels of pain. Just a teeny-weeny application of the lock, they tap, not even considering absorbing the pain, and bring the threshold to the limit. It is as if they are made fragile.
No, I’m not posting this to prove how tough i am, I’m just stating an observation that the folks these days have gone soft. yes i feel the pain, i just don’t die easy.