What is the ultimate victory? Something that you strive for all your life and comes to a satisfied sensation to know that, “Yes! I’ve made it!”

Does becoming a champion matters? Winning a few medals and trophies? Sometimes, it can be scary when you stared at those gleaming prized objects of desire; and see nothing. It’s a proverbial ‘So what?’ that can drive a person crazy, chasing more medals, chasing what cannot be chased.

Recently I attended Takao Hattori sensei’s seminar, and he has a tendency to use the word ‘I win.’ He is of course a native Japanese and sometimes his English is a literal translation of his Japanese phrases and somehow saying that ‘I win’ doesn’t quite mean what he exactly mean.

So if ‘I win’ does it means someone else ‘lost’? I guess in his literal terms is relative to swordsmanship. If both Samurais faced each other in a duel, and the outcome is the death of one and the continue existence of the other, I guess its pretty much absolute that the one still standing ‘wins’.

Well, move into contemporary times, no one really duel to the death. so what does it means to ‘win’? Like many things i delve about, there is no quick fix, instant answer. some people takes their entire life to find out their ultimate win, some goes through the roller coaster ride from the highs of ‘winning’ to the lows of ‘losing’, up and down, up and down.

The point I’m driving is that, look closely at our own lives, everything single breath we take, is a sign of a ‘win’. from the day our dad’s little sperm swam and latched onto our mummy’s eggs, we already won, all the way till now. we have never lost. So my starting point is absolute. we win. the duality of ‘win/lost’ is a fallacy. it is only one way, ‘win’ and how much you ‘win’. if you didn’t ‘win’ you didn’t lose, you just hadn’t won yet, so it is a ‘no-win’. So what happens when you give up? Even when you give up, it is only one area where you decide not to focus on, you don’t lose, you continue to win, in other areas, small areas. you only feel that you ‘lose’ when you feel that you cannot measure up to a certain expectations. Well, expectations is not you. so keep winning, until the day you die, then death, Wins.


About Who is Randy Lim

This blog is about the journey and experiences in my life as an Aikidoka. With close to 20 years in the arts, I'll make comments and judgements based on 2 principles, E&E. Experimentation and Experiential reflection. please enjoy, and comment freely.
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