My friend Steven, said this to a apparently very smart student during a critic session. ‘A man, going from point A to point B, encounters an obstacle. He overcomes the obstacles, climb over the obstruction and face the clear path, then he turns back pick up the obstacle and place it in front of him, and overcome it all over again, and then once he has done that, he will, pick up that obstacle and place it in front of him again.’
Ha, Ha, Ha! What an epiphany!
This is what i call a ‘Yes, but’ syndrome. It is ever so common in Aikido. Even for me, sometimes i trip over myself thinking myself into the problem, and not only that allowing the problem to stand in the way of the solution , when the only solution to the problem is letting the problem be where it is, let sleeping dogs lie.
Aikido is in its truest sense a very simple art, but it is not easy (there i go again!) We refuse to believe it and when we can do it well, reasonably well, we refuse to accept out competence and go out of the way to put heavy hindsight on what we did, and how we can do it better. This creates a kind of burden which will eventually screw up preceding actions, so we end up living in the yesterday.
Because we are constantly caught up in the hindsight mode. We keep thinking about the obstacles we have overcome instead of the road ahead. Our problem justifies us. We simply cannot accept the state of ‘Am’, ‘being’ the being. We have to tell ourselves “we are not perfect”, “we are vulnerable”, “he is better”, “i need to improve on this”. “this don’t feels right”, “that don’t look good”. blah blah blah.
Shut up and do it! there will always be obstacles but not every obstacles are permanent, we make them so! We make them so with a ‘yes, but…’ why the but then? because the mind has gone so psychotic that we cannot accept it when things are going so well, and we cannot believe our ‘luck’ that things are going so well, or when things are going bad, and we cannot believe that it will not get any better. All that hindsight hell didn’t help make the situation, we did. Doing did, hindsight is for critics, for people who blogs. When action is needed, act. think later.
Reflections is for a still pond, where you can see your reflection. when you are fishing in that pond, struggling to reel that carp in , straining on your rod, do you reflect? You act! otherwise, you cannot reel that carp in, it is only after you reel it in, the action in the pond is settled then you reflect, and when another fish took your bait? Time to act? Not reflect!