Secrets

To the untrained eye (including mine) Harry sensei’s movement is full of ‘secrets’. He does his techniques in the most effortless way and people simply finds him ‘irresistible’. Of course there is a lot of ‘hows’ in our heads, and question marks around our head. But there is no secrets.

Sensei does not keep secrets, he is always very, very open and share as much as he can, but he cannot share the physiological part of his training, how he feels what he feels, that is unique to everybody and sometimes this part of the training frustrates him. It frustrates him to see us fumble to understand what is so fundamental to him. The difference is in the quality in the fundamentals, he has over 40 years of ‘fundamental’ training. At his level he understands and sees things differently from us. More than 40 years of experience cannot be ‘downloaded’ just with a click of the mouse.

Unfortunately, this is the human-ness part of our existence, we cannot speed this up, the learning curve is a learning curse. He can point out our mistakes, but it is us to correct that mistake, and not make it again. By jolly, we will, again and again, until a point in time, we somehow finally break free from that mindless, senseless habit that grips us, and defines our movement, and not the other way around. Sensei has been there before, and sometimes he is a victim of his own habits. So all he can do is patiently refine us, refine himself, and when he has an epiphany, he shares it with us, test it out on us. We as his students can only try our best to keep up, with a being who possess over 40 years of ‘technological advancement’.

It is a window of opportunity. Sometimes, it is open, sometimes its closed, from what i’ve experienced, the more you train, the longer you train, the harder you train, the more you can keep that window from closing. So go to class even if you don’t feel like it, because every time i go to class, i feel basked in a wealth of experience and knowledge, sometimes the richness is far too much for my appetite. So it lies in my ability or the lack of it to absorb what my sensei has to offer, and not the other way around.

It is not that our sensei who keeps secrets from us, the potential lies in us. and when we are ready, there will be no more secrets.

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About Who is Randy Lim

This blog is about the journey and experiences in my life as an Aikidoka. With close to 20 years in the arts, I'll make comments and judgements based on 2 principles, E&E. Experimentation and Experiential reflection. please enjoy, and comment freely.
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