I was doing some weight training a couple of weeks back and i have this usual wince on my face, which you often see people who is like pushing for the physical limit.
The it occured to me that ‘Hey, i do not have to spend that energy wincing’ I realised it was such an unecessary hype to look so strained.?
Come on, let’s be equanimous about it. does all that straining wincing help? Well, my muscles is already aching, and tired. sure there is physical stress, somehow by not wincing and putting that strained look on our face, i was able to better focus on the pain and in doing so, the pain seems to minimize a little. Well it still hurt, and by not dramatizing it by putting emotions to it, good or bad ones, seem to put the hurt and pain in perspective.
This is very important to our training as it exposes our attachment to pain and suffering. we all have a masochistic tendency to crave pain and suffering so as to prove our existence. We define our toughness by a display of how resilient we are to pain. all that display is on the face.
I have to admit it, i take a certain amount of pride to know that i am very resistant to locks. It is perhaps a secret fetish i have that my fellow aikidokas can lock me in a nikkyo and that has absolutely no effect on me. Most of them think that their technique is ineffectively applied on me. truth to the matter is that i can resist pain, and find a certain pleasure in in. It is the works of the ego. It hurts, but i channel the pain differently, which is actually kind of dangerous.
That evening, doing my weights, I found something beyond pleasure or avoidance. By not being unnecessarily emotionally attached to pain and suffering, we can realistically and more accurately tell ourselves when to stop. When the threshold is breached injury will be sustained.
Emotions, more often than not, will cloud our judgement. We train to harness that fight or flight response. Our training gives us resilience and stoicism to face pain and suffering, and avoid unnecessary pain and suffering.
To suffer pain is already bad enough, to react to that pain and suffering emotionally is to amplify that pain needlessly, and taking away our capacity and initiative to make decision in the best and most realistic manner.