Conditioned to freedom

Here is the irony.

Whenever we set out to do something, we have to start from a very repetitive state. As much as we hate it, the beginning is always about drills, drills and more drills. We are conditioned to do a certain movement again and again and again.

Form and function.

Well, if all that i am preaching is that we humans are essentially free, then why the hell are we subjecting ourselves to the confines and regiment approach to find and discover freedom?

If we delve along the line of the spirit of freedom, then why must we turn in circles, move in a dance like manner, so as to learn Aikido? And if Aikido is theoretically a macro representation of life, why the form and why the function? If peace and harmony is so damn natural as nature, why is it so damn hard for us to ‘get it’?

Because freedom needs to be investigated, vigorously and rapturously. Freedom is not free. It comes with practice and extensive self reflection.

Then again, after all that effort we are back where we started a clean slate.

So when we see an innocence of a child, we are actually seeing the innocence in us, reflected off the child. No one is born innocent, there is a lot of spiritual and emotional burden brought about by birth, not only the birth of a human, but as long as there is birth, there is an enormous burden tied to that birth.

Our mothers goes through a lot of pain, so did our dads, and the entire fraternity of the pediatrics professions, the baby industry. Not forgetting for every births recorded, how many babies didn’t make it. so we are not born innocent. We are born so that we can become innocent.

Take a kid, who does things at a whim and without any care or concern, or responsibility. Kids are not innocent, they are ignorant. Ignorant to the cause and effects they are creating with every nano seconds they exists. Only a truly conscious person can bear that and find the courage to live,as a being, in full glory.

There for we need to subject ourselves a certain degree of conditioning, a little hardship, this will prepare us for our journey to freedom. Only when one spend time in jail, can one treasure the value of freedom. Therefore, we have to train hard, grind ourselves against the grindstone. either the grindstone breaks or we breaks. Either way is fine, cos neither the grindstone nor us will last forever.


About Who is Randy Lim

This blog is about the journey and experiences in my life as an Aikidoka. With close to 20 years in the arts, I'll make comments and judgements based on 2 principles, E&E. Experimentation and Experiential reflection. please enjoy, and comment freely.
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