I told Tri last night in training that he has to think a grade higher. He Is now a ‘brown gold’, which make him a 3rd kyu. He has to think like a black, 2nd kyu, so that he can be comfortable with the grade he is going to get in the near future.
I know a grade is a very abstract thing, black doesn’t make one invincible, a grade was originally meant to measure and assess where one level of skill is, it is for your own knowledge, it is for you to know yourself, but people being people, will resort to comparison with the proverbial Joneses.
We cannot help ourselves but look out, external to compare with the internal, which will never, ever be equitable. Our internal is mean for us to use for our own, it is never ending, the source is a continuum. Our external is meant for us to relate to, not as a mean for comparison.
So when we internally think we are at where we are, we will be at exactly where we are! So if we compare ourselves as a 3rd kyu, we are junior to that of a 2nd kyu, we will be junior to that, but since we are going to get what we are going to get, which is a 2nd kyu, in the near future, then why not think and project first??? Of course we need to be realistic and not think ourselves as 10th Dan at where we are!
So this is a mental projection albeit a healthier one. You don’t need to strive to be more, that will be a struggle. All you need to do is think more, be more and you will have more. There is no need to strive. It is only when you struggle and fight for it vehemently then you need to be careful where your ego has gone.
Feelings are very abstract, that I learned lately. When you feel a certain palpitations, a certain heart rate rising, your palms starts to sweat, your pupils dilate, you can be either excited, stressed, aroused, afraid or all of the above, you see the body’s doesn’t have these labels, our mind does, we give labels so that we can use them as tools, and labels are great servants but not so great as masters. When we let a certain labels get to our head, that is where we need to be careful.
So a grade is a very abstract thing, the colors we wear are just that colors, and to a person who is colour blinded, those colors will be perceived differently. So don’t let grade and colors fixate you. Think higher, the skills between grades sometimes is barely perceivable, I mean if both 3rd and 2nd kyu are closely skilled, and both wearing white, can you really tell them apart? Hardly!
Please be a little creative and use a bit of imagination, there’s nothing wrong with aspirations as longs as no one gets hurt in the process of achieving them.